Take it

Each death took a piece of my soul

The toll to cross the river into the Underworld

But you took the last one.

I remember the feeling like it was yesterday

I stared at my phone for so long

Emotions bubbled and frothed,

Always beneath the surface.

I pulled up old videos of you,

Just to hear your accented voice.

I looked at pictures of you

Of us, of your kids

Your kids

I grew up so jaded,

I never knew what a parent could be to a child 

You taught me, you taught them

And then you were torn from them. 

From us. 

I felt my soul shut down

Your kids no longer have a mom

I felt it turn cold and hard

Your 2 oldest have no parents at all

I felt it leave me for good

You are gone,

But if it means you get a ticket to heaven

You can take what’s left of my tattered & chewed soul

Take it and fly away 

Spread your love and compassion,

It’s the only way my soul will do any good anyway