Deaf

Reminiscing 

About walking down the tire tracks

In the snow

And how the sound

Of nothing 

Can be so deafening 

Never Let Go

I didn’t know. 

I never knew how people could just...cry

How they could feel actual joy 

Or get excited about small things

Things that didn’t have meaning 

To life’s grand plan. 

I would observe them 

Like they were under my microscope

Always studying,

Trying to figure out how I could feel 

How I could also feel joy 

And even cry 

(Although I was loathe to admit it)

My favorite subjects were siblings

How they could fight so much

But when it came down to it

They would do anything to help each other. 

That kind of love 

Was something I never knew of. 

It wasn’t. 

I think I know now. 

I think I see through your eyes

Instead of just observing

You give and give and give

So much of yourself to me  

And I love you so much 

That I want to give you everything in return. 

I know now what I didn’t know then 

I understand it 

I feel it in my core

My entire being

And I promise you that

I will never let you go 

Move

When a person is a home

But the person is gone

Where do you reside? 

I am homeless. 

Explode

The cracks you started 

Shook and bubbled,

Then contracted and shrank.

But they stayed,

Patiently waiting

And today...

Today they caused

An explosion 

Thank you 

11:11

Make a wish

But

I don’t believe in wishes

Because

The results are contradictory

Or

Volatile at best

Corners

It often seems as if life is just

Creeping around corners,

Trying not to get caught.

About pushing each boundary 

To its breaking point,

Watching the pieces crumble and shatter. 

Tip toeing

And your toes start to bleed

From the shards of your life on the floor.

Taking the moments you know 

You’re meant to die,

Yet you’re somehow still alive.

Until you become

Invincible. 

Monsters

There are monsters

Clawing at my insides

Looking to find a foothold

To climb up my throat

And through my lips

They bubble and froth in my belly

They howl and scream in my lungs

They rage 

They rage 

They rage

Until a wisp of one reaches my tear ducts

Then trickles down my face

Into my mouth 

Where my tongue darts out to collect

And I swallow them back 

Down my esophagus

And into my belly

Where they will forever reside