Life on Hold

Alone with my thoughts
And the blinking of the smoke detector light
Staring at the wall
And the contrast of the pillow case
That doesn't blend quite right
My mind slips
My emotions crack amongst the heavy,
Relentless,
thoughts that plague
Drool seeps from the corner of my lips
Like the proverbial dam
That has just been ripped open inside

I said I wouldn't do this again
To myself. To them.
They said they wouldn't do this again
To me. To him.
These thoughts wash blankly
Like pen to hotel paper.

I miss my home
The life I've made with you
That's all I want
Is to be in your arms

Instead I listen to strangers through the walls
Strangers who become my solace,
My comfort
I am not alone in this vapid pit of darkness
Not alone with these torments and struggles
Tomorrow morning will go on
Bringing me one day closer to you

Keep Strong

Time will always tell,

It might not heal,

But it will allow spaces to form

Between what was and what is to be

What is. 

Trust in time 

Trust that it will give you what you need

And it will keep moving

As relentless as the sea 

Water doesn't form rock by sheer power

But because it never gives up 

Written 1/14/13

Plane Brain

Clouds. 

Look like the surface of the ocean

What if little aliens live in the clouds

And wonder how we can live

With oxygen so thick

And warm

Like how we wonder 

How fish breathe underwater 

Written 1/14/13

Love

I've never minded instability 

Until now. 

I want to make a home with you

I want to mold you into my world

While i form into yours 

I want to be the best me

For you. 

To wake up every morning to your goofiness

Roll over, wrap my legs with yours

And scratch your scalp with my chewed fingernails

I'm not perfect,

Not even close,

But i'm perfect with you. 

Written 1/14/13