Doubt

Do you ever doubt

The Earth's power?

The exquisite beauty of

Mother Nature?

The calm serenity of

A glassy lake?

Then why, my dear,

Do you doubt

Your own? 

See

Look what happens

When you give the love

You weren't sure existed

The love you thought was lost

Down some dark pool inside you

A glass lake

Doesn't slowly ripple

Rather a boulder falls into its center

A mountain with a moat

The weather patterns change 

And the lake is never calm 

Again

That's what love is

That's what we get when 

We freely give 

Thrive

It only takes one hit

One moment of weakness

A single pill

To spiral down the rabbit hole

Down

          Down

                    Down

Where you don't even know your name

And you don't know what pain is 

And the pain you do feel

Is amplified

Beyond measure

The place where demons thrive

Where nothing will grow

Nothing will live 

Especially not you. 

Of the night

I am a woman of the darkness

In it, I come alive

Waking, moving

My vision sharpens and I become

Electrified 

Yet this world lives in the daylight

and most people are afraid of the dark

They're afraid of what's out there

Of the horrors that happen at night

They fear that which they cannot see

People are afraid of the unknown

And the truth is 

That I am feared 

Because 

I know.

Here I Am

Nothing on the calendar

Nothing checked off the list 

No TV show marathons

No training plans completed 

Yet this Monday feels like 

The first of its kind

Fresh 

New

Learning how to walk again

All scraggly legs

Crumpling on the ground

But getting back up again

Like a newborn fawn 

No physical changes 

Nothing to write home about

Yet here I am...

...writing home

This past weekend was hard

Too much introspection

Depression 

A hook down my esophagus 

Into my stomach

And out my ribcage 

Meditation

Deep, spirally, light-show meditation

No drugs 

No aids 

Nothing

Yet here I am...

....changed