Friday, March 27, 2020

Alive

My teeth are numb
So I listen to the rain
Hit
Hit
Hit
The window instead
My eyes can’t focus 
So I focus on the breath coming
In
In 
In
My nostrils
My stomach expands
And I hone in on the basics
Of what i means to 
Be alive. 

Tuesday, March 24, 2020

Comfort

There’s comfort in that
No one really knows me
But there’s discomfort in that
No one really understands me

There’s contentment in that
I don’t let anyone in 
But there’s resentment in that
I’m always hiding 

I have so many secrets
Most of them are stupid
But they’re still mine
And only children don’t share 

Monday, March 9, 2020

Float

Swimming in the ocean
Watching the fish float in the coral
A wave rolls through and 
Carries them to the next coral
They don’t mind
They don’t even notice
They simply move with the water
Trusting that their next meal 
Will come with ease

Useless

I kept myself to myself
Because I thought 
Those pieces of me were not useful
That they would get me nowhere
So therefore, they needn’t be shared.
But year after year 
Of boarding up my own windows
Of hyper-analyzing myself
Of judging every particle
To see if I’m useful to the world
Is not only exhausting
It’s fucking stupid.
The very entrapment I made 
To determine usefulness
Is useless