Selfish

Everyday

I get ready 

I workout

I get ready again

I go to work 

At work I laugh. 

I feel productive. 

I feel like the bullshit I'm doing

Matters 

I go home

I cook dinner

I relax

I don't worry about tomorrow

Everyday 

You wonder if you'll live through it

You hope that your kids won't find you

if you don't

You pray today will be the day 

That they say, "Cancer Free"

You go to endless doctor appointments

You grin and bear the pain 

The biopsy's 

The tests

The enless fucking waiting 

You tell me of your struggles

The ones I'll never understand

Everyday

I am selfish.