How could I be so stupid
Calling and never answering and finding the wrong ways to go about the wrong way
Surrounding myself with thoughts and more thoughts
Teetering…always teetering
Never tipping.
And smiling around the world, like the happiness is just something I want to get rid of
I want you to take it, please take it, it just doesn’t suit my fancy
I'm not fancy.
Yet I’ll always win you over.
I’ll always fucking win you over.
The smile is all I have to do. Maybe add a bit of eye play for you.
Expressive eyes, they say.
WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN?
Bullshit.
My eyes are my eyes, they see what they see, and they move the way they move.
My brain is expressive, it thinks by itself
I can’t even control it, it comes straight from hell.
Dancing and swarming and moving about
Nothing to stop it, not even…
Please. Stop. Me. Now.
Back to expressive eyes, that’s where I was at.
Glasses hide the things I think, at least that’s what I make believe
Heavy lids.
Did you know my left eye wanders?
I look like a fucking retard when it does.
Maybe that’s the expression you’re looking for.
You’re wishing me to be stupid.
Sorry. You lose.
I win.
You can’t keep up with me, never, no I said NEVER.
Try. You lose. Try again, I rub your face in the dirt.
Except I’d never sink that low.
Yes, again, I said never.
I love you.
And you and you and you.
I just like to make you feel like shit about it.
Yes I fucking love you, asshole.
You think I'm nice? Fuck off. I don’t care about you.
Life is about truth. Truths, rather.
About erasing the SHIT, the FOG,
That surrounds ourselves.
Encompasses our every being.
And takes over…smiles like it’s all the same…it IS all the same.
The same lies, day in and day out.
Stop me if you think I’m a liar.
I’m never a liar.
I’m a lot of things, this is true.
So many things, that you’ll never know exactly what I am.
I like it that way.
Hide behind my shades of green and blue.
Hide over here, behind my lazy left eye.
Worthless piece of shit.
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